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Tuesday, October 6, 2009, 7:44 AM
Remember those times baby? when we used to go to school every single day together, you sacrificed taking the bus just so you could take the mrt with me.. ouhyea, and those times when we would secretly hold each other's hands and smiled to ourselves cos we were too shy to show how happy we were towards each other. . heh, those were the days yeah baby? =) . and let me tell you a secret. i would usually stand up in class an act as if I was stretching just to get a glance of you in your classroom at the opposite side of the balcony. I always laughed at the thought of that. how childish, immature and naive I was. but I know those were the major reasons why you fell in love with me. . but no matter how childish or immature or naive I used to be, I was already serious about chu at the age of 14+ can you believe it? . how i always lied to my parents just to get a glimpse of you, a taste of your touch, when i was only 14+. . and the many dates we had when you kept saying how beautiful i was when i felt i was the most messiest girl in the bunch. you wanted me so badly, i wanted you so badly. . and then my dad found out about us, you got so afraid things will end between us. . and when my parents finally accepted you, i remembered the long sweeet msg you gave me of how happy you were^-^ but every single day when we used to see each other, had to be shortened as you were ina different school and we were only allowed to see each other once a month. we had fights just because we missed each other soooo badly. . to me, that just shows how much we needed each other's presence. . and slowly, unnecessary issues started raising into our lives. ofcourse things went differently, definitly. but that didn't stop us from loving each other so much doesn't it? ♥ . now, i don't know what happened dear. i didn't know what i did to you, but whatever it was, you know i would never hurt you. you knew that. it's almost like, we're strangers to one another. after more than 2years, you are already a part of me. and there is no way anybody can change how much i love for you. nothing. . what did i do, to make you say such things to me? no baby, if it is not my fault, if it has nothing to do with me, then why don't you wanna see me like how you used to miss me so badly if you couldn't see me even for a day? if it has nothing to do with me, then why do you say that, your love for me is not as strong as before? . it is as much of a shock to me, like a bullet in my heart, like a stab in the back, like a choke in my throat. . i know i say i love you almost every single day. but believe me hunny, i really mean it when i say it eveyr single day. like the first day we sat at the park. when we wished that time would stop for us, to treasure that very moment. . no, you don't know, . how much you are hurting me right now, . when i've been holding on to you, . for more than a month, . when you already wanted to . let me go... . but i kept saying don't worry, things are going to turn out fine... . and today, . you don't love me as much as you did before... no my dear catcat, i don't want anyone else who can attend to my needs, . i want you . )'X
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