Lisah & LAW

Needed a saviour

2011-11-14T19:09:00.000-08:00

Difficult. Speechless. Clueless. Aimless. Troubled. Messed. Up.

Family. Friends. Boyfriend. Fans.

School. Work. Home.

Self.

Contented?

2011-06-26T20:44:00.000-07:00

Parents have hopes & dreams. But they decided to take the wrong path by letting love get the best of them and destroy it by starting a family. They have kids. Kids whom they want them to fulfill the hopes & dreams which they failed to reach. Kids whom they discipline and shape to follow the path they failed to take. As the first child, I have endured their highest expectations of me for far too long. I am exhausted of reaching the dreams of theirs instead of mine. I have not been doing well in terms of my physical being due to such extent of pressure. I am sick. Mentally & physically. I hope this does reach to a level where life is meaningless to me. & i decide to do something radical and out of my mind.

Somebody shut her ass up.

Mon Cheri

2010-12-26T01:35:00.000-08:00

I feel like it's not fair. I have to go through all this and still feel insecure about texting you. And all you do is just receive all the love that I give. And then I realise, that i'm being unfair to you. For thinking that way when you have been worrying about me, not being able to contact me when you wanted to. You did not ask for any of this or for a hard relationship. It's so hard for me to swallow this situation I am in. The fact that my family take this a tad bit too hard and too much. I don't think this is a difficult situation at all. But they make it seem like it's the worst ever. I don't want this to occupy them and make it a problem. I just want everyone to be happy with each other. And I wanna spend time with both my family and you. I feel so happy around all of you. It's because of me being more sociable now, they cannot take that fact. They're not used to it. And now they make bad assumptions about you and me. I'm sorry to both of you, for having to deal with difficult things with me being the middle person.

I love you too much to let you go. But I cant handle this feeling anymore longer. I cant take it. Theres too much hatred in your heart. Why cant you just let it go? Just enjoy having us while you can? I have to go through every single day swallowing this thought and your cold shoulder. I know things will get better. I just cant wait for that day to come. I'm sorry that my posts have been about problems and whinnings.

I love you.

Finally

2010-11-19T06:12:00.000-08:00

A thousand apologies guys. I have been very VERY busy with everything basically.
So in a nutshell, I'm doing really good in school but I dread coming home. I am very aware that this is obviously a rebellious side that you do not really expect from me since I'm always about maintaining a healthy relationship with family members and shit like that. So now I am going to explain on the issues that have been making me upset uptight and pressured for the past 2-3 months and give my reasoning on why it upsets me a lot. If you are the: I-always-think-kids-who-complain-about-their-parents-are-just-assholes kind of people then I recommend you do not continue reading this post.

I am no trying to say that they are wrong for not giving me an easy time but here is what really happened.

They found out I'm dating someone who they are not fond off because of RELIGION & STUDIES. Once my dad found out I'm seeing someone who I have already explained that I'm not in a serious relationship with, he kept saying how bad a person that boy was. He kept picking out all his flaws. I would like to conclude that my dad has been assuming all this just because I am with a boy. Whether he is good or bad, my dad will never like him and bloody hell why would an 18 year old girl like me choose a fucked up guy?

Then, mom and him always pick on me or even worst give me the cold shoulder when I come home anytime after 9! Because they think I'm outside happily fooling around with the boy. The thing is, I do not blame them for thinking this way because parents naturally have that mentality. But the thing is,

how can I be going out with him every single time I come home after 9?
what about a simple dinner and movie? what's wrong with a simple date?
my sis is allowed to sleep over her friend's place over 2 days and not get a punishment and I get scolded for coming home at 9 from BOTH PARENTS
i feel like running away right now. please don't follow my mentality. I'm a terrible role model. hais

The thing is, I used to look forward to coming home. Even when I go out with him. I just love the thought of being in my pjs at night watching simpsons with my whole family. I love them so much. My parents cannot do this to me just because I am seeing someone.

They are not even taking the initiative to ask how I'm doing in school. If they know I'm doing so well, I'm sure they would have cut me some slack when they found out I'm dating. But no. Once they know I'm with someone, straightaway they inject the idea that I'm getting distracted in school. Yeah I completely understand that I am the eldest and I have to show a good example to my 3 other siblings. But maybe if you could just trust me enough to know that I am capable of choosing the right path and leave me to live my life outside the house, I could show them that he makes me happier and he makes me want to do well you know?

They are even half hearted about letting me go UK this April. Am I that bad a daughter?

Now, everytime I come home, my parents give me this "Im disappointed in you" vibe. My sister is freaking stepping on my head and giving me an even harder time with her stupid I want this I want that You cant have this cos you have bf. Freakin disrespecting the shit out of me.

I hate coming home cos everybody is giving me a hard time. Now you know why I want to run away? But ofcourse I'm not literally going to do it cos I am not that kind of person. But why isit that my family keeps projecting me that way???

So what's the reason for me coming home everyday? Family lah. I don't want them to worry and they never seem to understand how much I care for them. Even when I have called them to inform my whereabouts and that I'm coming home late, I still get a bloody scolding from my mom. AND MY SIS IS SLEEPING OVER HER FRIEND'S FOR 2 NIGHTS!

They are pushing me to the point whereby it is easier for me to just lie to them than to tell them the truth. I don't think that is what they want but they leave me with no othe choice. I am not going to stop talking to Julius just because of this. I feel that, I am not hurting or disturbing anyone. I am not a criminal nor a bad student. I have never gotten myself pregnant I don't disrespect the elders. Why isit that just because I am dating someone I automatically turn into a bad daughter?

I hate this. It is happening all over again. And then they scold me about not doing the chores when my other 3 siblings are having they're freaking holidays now. WTF??
I'm done for the night. I'm tired.
Goodnight everyone, hope you've had a better day(:

Hanky Hem Mac

2010-10-22T08:28:00.000-07:00

Hanky Hem Mac

Belted Button Mac

2010-10-22T08:23:00.000-07:00

Belted Button Mac

Adam Levine

2010-09-28T10:40:00.000-07:00

I LOVE YOU!

2nd month

2010-09-25T07:37:00.000-07:00

It was awesome. Back is aching like mad. I'm very sorry you had to spend that much over 1 night. However it was a night i'll never forget(:

Cheers to many more months Mr.

Ups&downs

2010-09-22T08:40:00.000-07:00

It has been almost 2 weeks of the holidays gone. I still haven't found the right job for me. Even Triumph interview was a disappointment. I got the job but I declined it. Nevertheless, I've had LOADS of morning fun(: I just hope that I would get a job very soon.

Exam results are coming up in 1 more day. Very Nervous. I'm just hoping & praying for the best.

Our 2months anniversay is coming up in a day as well(: This 2 weeks have been very rough for us. It's always the problem with time which kinda sucks cos none of us can control that factor so, we shouldn't be blaming it on one another. I'm very glad that we've come to terms with it and will be celebrating our 2nd month this Friday with a clear mind and settled problems.

Will be going Jalan Raya soon with PRSS people and my girls next week. Hope it's going to be fun(: & i've yet to meet the Arab birthday girl. Hope it would be very soon too.

please

2010-09-20T09:30:00.000-07:00

Don't make me say you've crossed the line. Please.

shit

2010-09-20T08:53:00.001-07:00

I want to bang into people purposely again. So bloody frustrated.

Say you tired. Give me the cold shoulder.

Then go out with your friends. wtf.

Freakin lack of communications.

Freakin curfews. Freakin feelings.

I'm going out by myself tomorrow.

So much better & easier. Don't have to think about anyone else. Don't have to consider someone else's feelings and not reciprocating. UUGGHH

updates

2010-09-16T09:28:00.000-07:00

Let's move backwards starting from this week.

I've been hanging out with Julius for 5days straight. I've also been called Monday Wednesday & Friday for a certain reason(:

Been offered a job at Charles & Keith and the pay is awesome but I declined it because the working hours are crazy and they needed me to work during the 20 days sales period as well. I get sick easily when I'm tired. Gotta boost my immune system.

Hari Raya was okay. I was only enjoying the food. Honestly meeting my relatives was kind of a bitch. I get insulted & offended for shit I didn't do. Nowonder Mom&Dad didn't wanna tag along. How ironic is that? Kids going visiting instead of the adults. I'm thankful that not all of them were like that so, it was alright overall.

Exams were good. Again I'm thankful that I read through past year papers the day before I took it because the exact same questions came out. However I regretted not putting in effort for my courseworks because now I'm very uncertain that I would get good grades at the end.

I got paid $45 for working 1 day at Mitju. So I went to shop straight after my last paper-Contract law. Got a plaid skirt and a red bow tie. ^^

I was supposed to work for 7 days but after the hectic work condition on the first day, I came home with the flu and horrible aches all over my body. It was so bad I couldn't even climb the stairs. Which was one of the reasons why I declined Charles&Keith.

So now I'm looking for a new job, hopefully has nothing to do with sales but I guess that's the only thing I am able to get considering the amount of experience I've had and my passion for fashion. Was supposed to go for a makeover with Sabby this Saturday but it got cancelled. I was really looking forward to it cos I wanted to have my own portfolio to start on part time modelling. But I guess things don't turn out for a reason. It's alright, there will be other opportunities(:

16/9 was my beautiful girlfriend's birthday. I wanna wish her a Sexy Birthday. I'm very sorry I didn't call you because my phone's been cut off again. Nevertheless we will have a celebration next week, I promise! I love you, I care very much for you and I never ever forget about cha. Remember that(: May god bless ya and be with ya all the time.

What did I do with my Raya money? I spent it on M.A.C Lipstick-Angel. It is such a beautiful and sexy colour. But it only works its magic on a certain skin tone. If not it might look weird. I gotta get more M.A.C products. I got 2 pairs of RUBI pumps as well. That's basically it-.-

Tentatively am supposed to go Jalan Raya with my 3 girls this coming week so I hope that works out. My results will be out next Friday. Am so excited & nervous at the same time.

It's the same day as my 2nd month with Julius^^

Can't believe it's been this fast. Going to Sentosa with him on that day. Yeay finally I'm visiting Sentosa! It's been 2 years since I've gone there. Can you believe it?

You make me a happy girl, love.

Have a great holiday everyone~

Teenage dream

2010-09-05T07:48:00.000-07:00

WTH. I like that song. This sucks!

I've seen so many lovers around

Frankly there's none of em like us now

Holding hands by the park

Nose kisses in the bus

Geting so many stares from people who are not used to love

Like ours with not a care in the world

Laughing while hugging in the middle of the street

Staring into each other's eyes passionately just plain crazy

omar julius a hamid

2010-08-25T09:02:00.000-07:00

Thank you for being a best friend to me,

even by just being there for me.

If you guys think I prioritise him more than you cos i'm so crazy in love with him,

you don't know what i've been through and eventhough I still am going through it,

I still think about you guys every single day.

You didn't even ask me anything

yet you still have the cheek to assume things, judge me, say things about me.

So shut the Fuck up.

240810

2010-08-24T04:21:00.000-07:00

I'm glad we met today(:

i love you

Tips&Tricks

2010-08-19T08:48:00.000-07:00

One & Only. Your girlfriend should be your one and only. Make her feel special, k guys? You’re lucky to have her even if she’s lucky to have you too. We know there are prettier out there but we like feeling as if we’re the only beautiful one in your eyes, and the only one you see.
“Ladies first.” No. That rule doesn’t apply to communication. Don’t wait for her call, text, IM, why don’t you try talking to her first for a change ? It’s thoughtful and sweet if a guy can actually do that.
Surprise her. You don’t have to drive an hour to her house at 3 a.m. to set off her name in fireworks in front of her window, but the little things are big things. A simple, good morning text, is more powerful than you think.
What insecurities? For the love of god, all girls have insecurities. Please don’t point them out. For example, today I was looking at food and my boyfriend said “You eat a lot. You probably could beat me at a buffet.” WHAT. THAT’S NOT WHAT YOU SAY. Also, let her be herself. If she’s having a bad hair day, don’t make fun of her if it’s hurtful. Let her wear sweatpants and still feel pretty damn cute around you, even when she’s not looking her best.
Act the same around your friends. You’re not a real man if you completely blow off your girl in front of your homeboys. When you’re going to hang out with her & your friends you better not run off and leave her standing there to greet them like WUDDUPPP GUYSSS.. NO, you better at least walk with her and introduce her to them if you haven’t already. If you walk with her hand in hand, she’ll love it.
When she’s mad. Dude, you better try and get her back. Chase her, hug her, whatever it is, don’t let her walk away when she’s mad at you. It shows you don’t care enough to go after her. Don’t let her go.
Maintain. If you did a bunch of cute things with her before, try and keep it up. You don’t have to go all out everyday for her, but don’t stop completely just because you got her already.
Honesty. If you lie to her, you’re going to have one hell of a time regaining that trust because she’ll start questioning everything you’ve said or done for her, no matter how small that lie was. Fess up or get lost.
Trust. If your girl really doesn’t like one of your friends, trust, she has good reason to. Girls’ intuition -shrug- So don’t go hanging with your homegirl all the time if you know your girlfriend doesn’t like that bitch. She usually won’t hate for no reason. Respect her.
Love her. That’s all.

credits: Nisa A.

2010-08-15T08:18:00.000-07:00

Break fast

2010-08-15T00:26:00.000-07:00

I'm sorry but the salmon's too good to not put it hereXD

So there was just the 4 of us but I still had a really good time.

I left at 1030 while they all were still slacking there.

I'm hoping to get the position at that Tamp1 MITJU outlet cos they needed people for a 1 week fair. Earn some moolah during this study break so that I can shop after exams.

LBD HERE I COME! & that ZARA dress i've been eye-ing. anndd that black heels with hot pink soles OOOO!!!

So here are my break fasting/dinner plans with my gorgeous friends:

Monday: LFI people?? not confirmed

Tuesday: Julius

Wednesday: Shar

Thursday: Sluts-which i'm not sure I can go since i'll be going out for 3 consecutive days

Following Monday: Ayu, Aidah, Sabby

Following Friday: PRSS people

I still haven't heard from people like Nisa, Iffah, Hani and Ali. I miss you people and FYI my phone is back in use so just CALL ME! the 8186**** number.

Great, I'm gonna be broke even before Wednesday. Hopefully people will be kind enough this Ramadhan to treat me. Cos if I've got no cash with me I really can't go. Even my ez-link's empty. I only have bus concession. Increase by $2.50 BTW!!!!

Well although things have been rough these few days, I guess it's just the challenges I have to face for this month. And i'm thankful it's over within a day. Thanks for tolerating me Juls(:

Hope that all of you have a peaceful Ramadhan

Muacks!~

My girlfriend

2010-08-15T00:17:00.000-07:00

HAHAH
Aren't they all GORGEOUS??
and they're all mineXD

going to meet them all soon WOOH!

What's happening?

2010-08-13T09:43:00.000-07:00

This is so depressing.

It's like, i don't see the you I saw 4 months ago.

The you who I thought, would put me before you.

it's not happening again, is it?

Love

2010-08-12T04:46:00.000-07:00

I can't stand this anymore, I just can't.

So what if we can't touch? SO WHAT??

Love is not only based on touch. It never was.

Out of anybody else I had thought you'd be the most understanding when it comes to this. I thought you would have accepted my beliefs and respect it. It is such a hard thing for me to accept your difference but if I can accept you for that, why can't you? WHY?

You remember the 1st reason how I got to fall for you?

It was because of your intelligence.

It wasn't because of your touches.

Just because we can't touch, we can't laugh? we can't talk? we can't feel?

are you as shallow as those other malay guys i've dated?

are you?

Well, I don't think so. I never thought you were like them.

So stop being so pesimistic about not being able to TOUCH.

Be appreciative that you've finally got a girl who LOVES you for who YOU are.

Just STOP.

Stop apologising even, cos if you are going to do the same thing the next time I don't see why you should apologise now.

Think about it.

Jealousy

2010-08-08T21:57:00.000-07:00

Yeah it sure is one of the biggest sin to have.

But it's running in my blood and no doubt it's my nature.

What should i do?

sugar i don't got a problem with

giving you a little demonstration right quick

lay back, let me set it off with a kiss

to the lips, in between your hips

straight to the bed oh no

truthfully oh

like it on the kitchen floor

you ready baby

slow song, keep your thongs on

slide it to the side and signal me home

get ready babe cos im going to tear you down

wanna hear you scream my name

till the neighbours hear the sound

yes

2010-07-25T20:46:00.000-07:00

Once again, not a mirror

2010-07-13T10:40:00.000-07:00

Redhead.

what's it to you

2010-07-12T06:40:00.000-07:00

I know it's been awhile. It feels so strange thinking about where all those times went, when I felt so sure everything was going to be fine. Although there were so many flaws I could pick out, I couldn't put aside those many good things you had too. The determination to hold us together at first, and then just letting it go at the end. It's that face. That big joyful, cheerful, bubbly face. It just wouldn't stop making my day. I still remember it so vividly.

And the next thing I know, i'm smelling that sports cologne. That cheeky chuckle, and that devilish insults. The laughs that came about so randomly always with no reason at all. The soft little peck on the back of my shoulders.

Life is so mean to me, for letting me lose moments and people I used to have moments with. Life is too short, for us to forget the people we share a certain period of our lives with. Life is like that, there is nothing we can do about life but to move on and live it till we die. Sounds harsh. That's life. So again with the cliche phrase" Treasure every second with that person at that time, cos you may never know when you will actually stop talking to that certain someone forever."

Will post about my birthday soon after i'm done with my very last belated celebration with Julius(:

Wish upon a star part2

2010-07-01T06:06:00.000-07:00

Bowler Hat
Black Skinny Jeans
Suspenders
Bow Tie
Ralph Lauren White Shirt

NANANANA NANANANAN

WE

2010-06-30T08:19:00.000-07:00

It's kinda frustrating that you're making this so hard for me to maintain.

I'm not going to stop trying.

Cant I just?

2010-06-27T05:29:00.000-07:00

I miss the people I used to hang with. Missed the old days where we laughed like there was no tomorrow. Now it's just tired tired tired. Hope you guys are doing great(:

I just want to sit at a cafe, near a river,

where I can appreciate the breath taking scenery with you.

I just want to listen to that song on replay,

and dance by the beach with you.

I just feel like having a nice fine dining experience,

in a black dress on a rooftop restaurant with you.

I just love to climb into your room,

and cuddle up till the morning with you.

hearts

Cloud 9

2010-06-25T08:42:00.000-07:00

weeeeeeeee~

and then darling tell me when!

Paris Nights and New York Mornings

2010-06-21T10:48:00.000-07:00

Breakfast at Mickey's, make-up still on

Elbows on the greasy table cloth

One more coffee and one last cigarette.

Smiling at the rain cause you hold me close

My best dress on underneath this old coat

Walking down Bleecker noone is awake yet.

Still, seven hours

Nothing but clouds

it's enough to make your heart sigh

We should try

pick me up and take me out

We crash into love-filled nights

We race till we're out of time

And now that you've taken me up so high

Don't let me down

I'm going to watch her motherfuckers!

WOOO

2010-06-20T04:33:00.000-07:00

I don't consider it as a lie

nor is it the truth.

I don't think it is necessary to do it

but telling me sooner would have been good.

I'm not sure if it was some misunderstanding,

cos at that time maybe I was just edgy.

Should I just forget about it cos it could be something small,

or should I ask you about it, but it could be nothing at all.

Is silence a bad thing?

For you or me?

drugged

2010-06-16T09:25:00.000-07:00

Maybe there's too much for me to say?

Or maybe I just have nothing to say at all?

Maybe I'm just too happy with what I'm feeling right now?

Maybe, you're just too much..

Another Rainy Day

2010-06-16T08:35:00.000-07:00

Umm, I had fun(:

Wish upon a star..

2010-06-12T02:42:00.000-07:00

Charles & Keith wallet
High Heels
Body Shop Cherry Body Mist
Hair treatment, dye
Hair straightener
Victoria's Secret Perfume
Red dress
Yellow dress
Mac/Bobbi Brown Make up
Sunglasses
Sun Hat
Novel
Hair Accessories
Gift certificate to shop at Forever21

yeah well, it's just a wish(:

hehehe

2010-06-12T01:52:00.000-07:00

Goodafternoon Beautiful(:

2010-06-11T00:28:00.000-07:00

Hello Love.

Today is pretty much the same as yesterday and the day before that. Only that today, I can't SMS or call anymore. I can only receive incoming messages and calls. So if there's anything you want to ask, please call me(: Only today, my TV decides to go blank. I never believed in chain SMSes? Is that what you call it? Those that will cause you bad luck when you do not send it to your friends? Yeah well, my dad didn't believe in it too, until yesterday night when he ignored one chain SMS and things started to fall apart an hour later.

Firstly, his gig got cancelled, then he got to know that someone had played him, and then today this things happened. Yeah well, they are just coincidence to me. I had quite a nice lunch. Definitely way better than what I've been having these few weeks so, I'm thankful for that. And I know you're thankful for that too^^ Nothing to worry.

Today's Friday(: Omg it's damn fast. I felt like it was just yesterday we were hanging out at Esplanade^^ But i'm thankful there's 3days left(:

Take care of yourself. Have fun. I'll see you very soon.

Goodafternoon Gorgeous(:

2010-06-08T23:47:00.000-07:00

Well, I woke up at 2pm today^-^ It was kinda hot, but there was a cool breeze. I'm guessing it rained this morning(: But right now it looks SUPER hot! It's supposed to be raining heavily today. Yes, e-weather has failed me^^ But I shall not speak too soon! It's still early ya know(:

Just had bread with butter and sugar. I'm not going to call it toast cos I didn't toast it. Haha, I like my breakfast that way. So yesterday, I only watched TV and did chores. Major slack. It was nice I guess, considering it was raining and i've not been doing that for so long. If only I had good food and a hot chocolate to go along with it. Felt guilty though for not doing anything productive. That's Singaporeans for you(:

Oh! I watched She's out of my league yesterday. It was awesome. I don't know how you get some tips from there though. Mom's not feeling well. Had some problems with her right eye and abit of arguements with dad.

So how have you been? How's the weather over there? I still have your cologne with me(:

I miss you.

Goodafternoon Sunshine(:

2010-06-08T02:04:00.000-07:00

I woke up on a rainy morning today. It was really heavy, and there were thunderstorms. Guess who I was thinking of? =\

So I'm thinking maybe it was because of yesterday, when I spent the whole time with you. Maybe it was because of that, it doesn't hurt me so much knowing that you're away. The pain is not really there, cos I know that we really made use of every second yesterday to be with one another. I guess that's a good thing. But I can't stop thinking of you

I hope you're enjoying yourself right now. Cos I really want you to be happy whenever and whereever you are. If you must know how i'm feeling right now, i'm close to tears as i'm typing this. Heh, silly me. Going all drama and it's only been a day(: But i'm not crying over the fact that I can't talk to you for 7 days[sorry for reminding=\] I want to tell you that, you've made my heart full once again. So i'm thinking you've read my letters?

I'll see you for lunch next Tuesday.

Listening to Norah Jones- Don't know why

My Noah

2010-06-07T06:50:00.000-07:00

He walks like a nerd, looks like a geek.

He dresses simply, just a Tshirt and bermudas.

He doesn't care what anyone thinks of him,

but it affects him so much with whatever I say about him.

He enjoys good food from every culture.

He appreciates the smallest things in life.

He has fine taste for things.

He likes to dance and he likes to sing.

Although not very good at singing, he has a way with producing and composing music.

He always tries to speak with an accent.

Eventhough I've been telling him how annoying it sounds, I secretly think it suits him so perfectly.

He is the boy who hides behind his spectacles.

But is like a disney movie that has been unleashed everytime he takes them off.

Big brown eyes, long & thin eye lashes.

A boy who may seem like nothing to you at a glance,

but a gentleman who is one in a million through my eyes.

J.CO

2010-06-05T09:54:00.000-07:00

Spent my whole friday watching The Imaginarium of Dr Parnassus with Julius at J.co

I had a wonderful time(:

Heaven

2010-05-23T19:17:00.000-07:00

Good food is something that everyone appreciates. However the price is one of the important factors where every customer will reconsider whether it's worth their money to DINE IN the restaurant.

As for me, the atmosphere is the No.1 most important reason why I go there. I LOOVEEEE alfresco setting. I swear, the view makes me go crazy and might even get me high(weird). But that's how my mind works. Imagine it! On a beautiful Monday afternoon, having lunch outdoors, fresh air, nice breeze, good company... What's better than that??

Of course my No. 2 would be the quality of the food. Price does not matter to me if it's worth it. We all have to try a piece of em good food once in a while. We all deserve to try em.
.

So like at my previous post, I was talking about having lunch at Coffee Club? Yeaah it was awesome... I just wished we could have ordered more food and stayed there like wayyy longer. It got me so interested in exploring for more good food & good places for good food!

time

2010-05-23T01:20:00.000-07:00

My Saturday was definitely well spent.

I woke up at 12 and did some house chores till 2. Got ready and reached Somerset at 4.45pm.

So had a really late lunch at Orchard Coffee Club. In love with the atmosphere and the alfresco setting. Ofcourse i had my favourite garlic prawn pasta and ice mocha vanilla!!!!!!!!!!!!!

sorry.

sudden excitement.

It was just a really great dining experience for me, which i've been dreaming about for a long long time(:

So then we watched Shrek at Plaza Singapura^-^

and had Mocha Java at Starbucks afterwards. Yup, got really high.. If only I could have hung out at Elsie's place... Cos I really didn't want my Saturday to end!):

But it was just plain awesome.

Next stop, TCC!!

For you

2010-05-18T09:26:00.000-07:00

I got taken in,

we feasted on olives from the fridge
we stood the whole lonely day
we made love all afternoon
till the stars went blue
.
You wrote a ballad
we dined on oysters and champagne
that's what it seemed like
so we connect in so many ways
so easy, i must say
.
why am i so shy around you?
why am i so shy?
why do i take care to astound you?
why do i even try?

16th May

2010-05-16T08:39:00.000-07:00

It was 3.15pm.

They were in the bus. They were not really sure where the were heading to, as long as it's somewhere they could spend time with each other.

He thought it was the right moment to pop the question to her, as it was the last day of her exams. She was looking out the window, thinking about him, smiling to herself, when he called her name, and asked her if she had thought of the answer.

She said yes, and believed that it was the best choice she had ever made.

Today, she finally realises that, today, she officially lets him go.

And she hopes, that one day, all this is not lost.

One day, they'll be good friends.

One day.

I love you Mom

2010-05-11T08:29:00.000-07:00

Tomorrow: ICE-CREAM!

I realise I'm so ego infront of everybody else, but I crumble so badly when I'm infront of you.

I still haven't had Prawn aglio olio for a looonggg time. 3 projects due in two weeks, 2 of them are half way done, haven't even start on the last one. Very exhausted with studies and am mentally occupied with a lot of things. I miss year 1 sem 1.

Stress->Ways of overcoming->Looking at photographs.

New hobby.

HOE

2010-05-08T23:53:00.000-07:00

I love you, Sexual.

Silly Actions of the day: Doing the robot in the middle of lecture.

Leopard spotted Nails

2010-05-07T21:46:00.000-07:00

Projects.

The map's owner is killing me.

McLovin

2010-05-05T23:54:00.000-07:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=j9RWVEAQeC0

What's for dinner?

2010-05-05T08:24:00.000-07:00

I've just spent my last hour looking through Cute Girls Make Me Nervous tumblr. Crazy hot photos they have I swear. Giving me some fashion ideas as well. Bloody hell, these girls are gorgeous..

Been feeling lethargic and exhausted these past few days, but I bought myself a sexy pink file from UrbanWriteXD AND its plastic is oxo-biodegradable. YOU ROCK MY WORLD, URBANWRITE!
.

So I've just completed revising MBS and Family Law, one topic each. Now i'm trying my best to start on my research. Looking forward to Friday!!! Only 1 lecture, lunch with TSP and hanging out with bitches in the evening. Then Saturday, most probably hanging out with Arab and Jew.

Freaking Gorgeous

Turning 12.

2010-05-04T07:13:00.000-07:00

Can't remember what happened on my 12th birthday. Has been so long since I get to play bubbles and cry over stolen toys.

Happy Birthday to my lovely siblings, twins, boy&girl.

Despite of the things that had happened(uhuh), I'm still so proud of you devils.

&& I love you so much, don't forget your family when you grow older okay?

God bless ya you horny bitches.

More melodramas in school, breakdowns, exhaustion, ccas...

Guess I'm living the typical teenage life.

Especially emotion wise, just like everyone else.

I'll update more tomorrow?^-^

Needa finish up on my revision.

Take Care Gorgeous

Dan Sebenarnya

2010-05-01T01:48:00.000-07:00

Ohh bulan..

Enggan melayan diriku lagi

Pabila... Air mata membasahi pipi

Dan lagu-lagu di radio

Seolah-olah memerli aku

Pabila...

Kau bersama yang lain

Adakah perasaan benci ini sebenarnya cinta

yang masih, bersemadi untukmu

Dan sebenarnya ku mengharapkan disebalik senyumanmu itu

Kau juga, merindui aku...

Ku enggan berpura-pura ku bahagia

Ku enggan, melihat kau bersama si dia

Ohh ku akui cemburu mula menular dalam diri

Pabila...

Kau bersama yang lain

Adakah perasaan benci ini sebenarnya cinta

yang masih, bersemadi untukmu

Dan sebenarnya ku mengharapkan disebalik senyumanmu itu

Kau juga, merindui aku...

Pabila kau merenung matanya

Ku rebah, menjatuh ke bumi

Di saat kau benar benar mahu pergi

Seperti ku bernafas dalam air

Dan sebenarnya, dan sebenarnya

Aku rindu...

Dan sebenarnya, dan sebenarnya

Aku tak mampu...

Deeper Conversation

2010-05-01T01:38:00.000-07:00

Is your favourite colour blue?

Do you always tell the truth?

Do you believe in outer space?

Now i'm learning you

Is your skin as tanned as mine?

Does your hair flow side ways?

Did someone take a portion of your heart?

I'm learning you

And if you don't mind

Can you tell me

All your hopes and fears and everything that you believe in

Would you make a difference in the world

I'd love for you to take me to a deeper conversation

Only you can make me

I'd let my guard down for you

And in time you will too

If you don't mind can you tell me

All your hopes and fears

And everything that you believed in

Would you make a difference in the world

I'd love for you to take me to a deeper conversation

Only you can make me

I'm angry

2010-04-28T06:01:00.000-07:00

But that's life for you in the Business world.

Learn to adapt/change? So cliche. Yet, it's so hard to do.

I so rock.

Fuck yeah Friday

2010-04-23T06:26:00.000-07:00

Already had some crazy laughs at 10 in the morning in the Lecture Room without any coffee I must say. Oh crap, I had some chocolates with caramel in it. Nowondeeerr...

So Management Business System lecture was too fast. Mr Shiny was speaking like he's going to lose more hair any second. Business Accounting lecture wasn't so bad. Thankgod I was already prepared for it cos I read and highlighted the notes yesterday night.

After school plans were all spoiled. But I guess just hanging out with my two assholes made it all seemed soooo awesome((:

TGIF everyone!!

2010-04-20T00:21:00.000-07:00

Life's boring, yet complicating.

Sigh, I don't wanna give out the wrong signal or something.

But, the feelings are there.

Don't know. Don't wanna know.

I miss 1L01 sooooo MUCH):

Schould I join dance ensemble cca this year?

Hmmm....

I miss my peaceful fun life.

2nd Year

2010-04-18T00:06:00.000-07:00

I don't know if I'm looking forward to another year of bitch fights that's for sure.

Last year's battle was definitely not fought well to me.

I'm in the same class as 5 of my other old classmates: Eugene, Azura, Barney, Julius and Kayoke.

2L05

I'm guessing that's alright.

My timetable's okay too. Just that I have no day off and my friday afternoon is taken up by 2 hours of Family Law.

Sorry if you can't see it, just click on the image(:

The earliest I would be released is at 3pm on Wednesday. But I'm guessing if you guys wanna hang out, Friday evenings would be fine. Cos I want to save my weekend mornings for work which I hope to find very soon. School's going to get really boring for sure, and 2nd year in Business School has been claimed to be the toughest. Well there goes my life.

Oh btw anyone who wants to talk to me even if it's in the middle of the night, just give me a call. Cos I love a short chat at 2, 3 am in the morningXD

yeah, that's it then.

Ciao

Birthday Trip!

2010-04-16T10:04:00.000-07:00

yeah.

What are you looking@?

2010-04-14T06:11:00.000-07:00

How am I feeling right now?

Fucked up.

I know I slayed the questions.

What are you guys going to do about it?

Irony has a new name.

2010-04-09T23:14:00.000-07:00

You make me feel a lil uncomfortable when you're here,

but I wanna run back to you when we're apart.

I can't believe your nonsensical being and the craps you say

but I love listening to you and that's all I want.

Why, you're more scared than a newborn kitten.

Nevertheless, I appreciate every little gestures you make so much.

Sexy

2010-04-09T09:14:00.000-07:00

Now you know why I like IT in the morning?:D

5 weeks

2010-04-02T23:28:00.000-07:00

As you can see, my holidays have been quite occupied with hanging out, shopping, SIFE meetings and shit. Well, I'd have to say this has been one of the holidays where I have fun, fun and MORE FUN. Anything meaningful I've done? Well besides doing chores every single day, and entertaining my 3 siblings, NONE. I feel so, unaccomplished.

I keep forgetting to fast during this holiday to payback last year's. But I haven't even got any proper food to eat regularly. It's like at times there are, and at times there aren't any food at all. Been meeting up with a few people, but there are still many of em who I haven't get any catching up to do. Let's see if I can name a few. There's Ali, Hani, Nisa, Iffah, Faizal, Tini. And holidays are over in two weeks time.

Haven't even got enough money left to subscribe to my Herald Tribune or TIME magazine. It sucks alright. How am I suppose to improve my English if I can't even afford it? Only the rich can be intelligent. Yes i've tried storybooks, watching Singapore News(atrocious English) yeahyeah I've tried Straits Times(again, atrocious English). They don't work.

Haven't had a proper picnic either. Or a trip to Sentosa.

Dad's not making much progress.
He's going on a tour this June. He's performing for charity around Asia. ACTIVISTS! Mom still looks terrible. With the number of hours she has to stand at work every day, how can she not be? I wish Dad could be healthy again so that he can work and Mom can stay at home. I miss those days when it used to be that way. And me? Well no company wants to take me in. I'm jobless!

My group's SIFE project is not making any progress as well. I'm so lazy to make this Fashion Show happen. They are depending on us to prepare EVERYTHING for them. I can't do that. Yet. I mean whatever it is, people will still need you to pay them for their services right? Come on. They can't possibly transport equipments with their own car using their own oil and taking up their own time, all for FREE? That's just unethical don't you think?

Unless ofcourse you're a close relative or friend. Or you're just too rich to care about money.

My cat is so sexy. Yeah random much aye Lisah? Well she's infront of me so I just HAVE to talk about this sexy beast. XD She's been sneezing these few days. Dear old Oren, getting old and sickly already. Well, she's been rather responsive to me lately as well. She layed on my lap while I was using the comp the other day. Eventually she fell asleep and I end up with numbed legs.

Well I guess there's nothing much left to talk about.

Chao

Beneath it all.

2010-04-02T10:19:00.000-07:00

Pure Activists at heart.

What a BITCH

2010-04-01T07:37:00.000-07:00

Suddenly, I have a strong feeling of losing someone. I miss this arab already and I just met her 2 days ago.

Can't believe in two weeks time, school is going to start and 99% chances of us not being in the same class.

Imagine myself not getting to see her everyday in school. I have to end up with the nerds and jerks, the geeks and creeps and she's not going to be there to bitch about with.

I don't know girl. It's like i've known you forever. How can I lose a friend like you?

Mouth-watering

2010-03-31T07:29:00.000-07:00

I've been wanting to have these for MONTHS!!D:

Fish & Co.

Coffee Club's

Garlic Prawn Pasta

any kind souls out there, please take me out to finally have these.
^^

It's been awhile...

2010-03-30T09:22:00.000-07:00

i've fallen into a deep hole in your backyard,
and it was purposedly dug for my accident.
i didn't want to come out at first
because i was too afraid.
but my family & friends came by,
they finally got me out and away from it.
now i have casts on both my legs,
and i can't work as normally as i used to.
i'm taking as slow as a snail to recover,
and i'm tortured by your trap everyday.
one day, a doctor came.
trained me to walk again,
taught me to feel.
but no doctor has yet,
made me love once again.

Saturday out in the city

2010-03-29T10:10:00.000-07:00

2010-03-28T07:31:00.000-07:00

2010-03-24T04:16:00.000-07:00

do you ever notice me?

Gear up for some tips on how you want to portray yourself in the business world

2010-03-21T02:28:00.000-07:00

Black: A colour that is powerful and authoritative, promotes strength and a sense of depth.

White: To inspire trust, appear detail oriented and on the ball.

Red: Draws attention, looking to set youself apart from the crowd, showing off your creativity.

Pink: Flirty, fun and full of romance. Not the best colour for office, but perfect in small doses and adds feminine grace.

Yellow: Cheery, a sense of dependability. Conveys stability and promotes clarity.

Green: Symbolic of growth and development, perfect when acquiring a new skill.

Purple: An imperial colour, associated with spirituality and a sense of mystic and royal qualities. Suitable for all seasons.

Brown: Melts away your fears, comforting effect and makes you feel everything is in an order.

Hope it helps!:)
-G2000

2010-03-20T10:38:00.000-07:00

i guided and adviced you.
stayed by you through the night hearing you tear
and fought alongside with you through obstacles and shit.
You gave one hell of a crappy acknowledgement,
leaving me by myself.
Your fucking welcome.

My Saturday!!

2010-03-20T09:46:00.000-07:00

I woke up at 8.20 a.m today for Business Ambassador Main Committee interview which is at 10.30.
It was fun and interesting. Had about 7 interviewers if i'm not mistaken, and the lights kept going off. I'll definitely update ya'll as soon as I get the results yeah(:

Took 23 to meet Juls at Tampines interchange. Guess which side of the bus stop I took it from? Yes. Went all the way to Rochor. Felt so foolish. =.=
Well, Juls gave a huge laugh after I told him about it. Heh.

So we went to have lunch at Century Square food court. We both had chicken rice. Fucked up ones. Then we walked around Tampines Mall and Tampines1. Charles & Keith is having an awesome sale right now. Go check it out:D
I tried on a lot of blazers at G2000 and 90% of them looked so good. Super jealous. Imma use whatever money I have to get one.
Juls tried on a full set suit with shirt and scarf at topman. He looked so hot:D
Couldn't take his eyes off the whole outfit^-^

So we went down to Macafe after that to chill out and since my friend wanted to give me free coffee, I didn't want to let go off such a lovely offerXD
It's coffee, who can resist? Definitely not me!
Apparently Juls pointed out I gt super high. Pfftss! I'm pretty sure I was 110% sane the whole of that time.

My legs feel like jelly now.
I enjoyed it^^

divine

2010-03-16T06:10:00.000-07:00

2010-03-15T07:02:00.001-07:00

baby i see you working hard

wanna let you know i'm proud

let you know that i admire what you do

don't know if i need to reassure you

my life would be purposeless without you

if i want it when i ask you, you provide it

youinspire me to be better

you challenge me for the better

seat back and let me pour out my love letter

let me help you take off your shoes

untie your shoe strings

take off your cufflinks

what you wanna eat boo? let me feed you

let me run your bath water, whatever you desire

i'll supply ya

sing you a song, turn my game on

i'll brush your hair, put your doo rag on

wanna foot rub? wanna manicure?

baby i'm yours i wanna cater to you boy

Time for wordy updates

2010-03-14T21:51:00.000-07:00

My holidays have been fun and full of last minute plans. I'm pretty sure I'm enjoying this end-of-year holidays more than the previous one[which had too many conflicts between my parents and you-know-who]. But this time round, it's definitely much more peaceful!

Also, pending plan to go to Syifak's house again at JB with the Sluts! I hope this one's going to be a blast for us. Slut outings have been quite peaceful too. I guess we pretty much have talked about everything? But I'm sure to stick to our slut motto: Slut never dies! :D

[We have many more mottos but, I'll use this one to apply here]

Results. It has improved a lot from last semester. But not as much as I expected. Ofcourse I'm disappointed at that moment. But I'm also determined to do much more in my 2nd year of Law. I love it too much to give up this easily.

I am still thinking about my classes next year. Non of us want to be seperated for sure. How am I to mingle with non-crazy teenagers? That's just weird. I'm going to miss the sluts for sureD:

Haven't been meeting with my 3 ladies:Sabrina, Aidah, Ayu.

Am very sorry for not attending the previous outing. As explained to you girls, I had 4 plans crashed at the same timing. And all 4 of them are as important. It really hurts me to let ours go. I'm sure to make the next outing a meaningful one. I'm sorry I can't promise you this cos I don't want to make promises which I'm not sure I can keep. I mean, what if anything important pops out at the last minute? I'm really sorry.

Sharifah Syifak, I miss you like crazy with you being busy with work, the family problems you have to deal with and the BOY problems as well. I feel bad for not being able to literally BE there for you when you needed someone. I miss studying with you under the blocks, walking home just to kill time and let loose. I miss the girl-to-girl talks and just us two outings. I definitely miss your crazy hair! But i'm glad that didn't change a thing about you. I know there's a very low possiblity we'll be in the same class next year, but if we do, it would be such a blessing for me.

I love you sexy!

Omar JULIUS. Definitely going to miss your craps and nonsense. Can't say more here^^

Love you too!

Well, that's all the mushy stuff I have for now.

Ouhyes, one more thing to update. Siblings are all grown up! And I can't stand looking at them all acting and behaving adult-ish.

It's been a pain in the ass trying to "guide" them these days with the TALKS and advicing and shit. But I'm proud of each and everyone of em. And to let out 1 secret, I can't stand not seeing them for a day!

Love you assholes(:

2010-03-14T07:56:00.000-07:00

2010-03-13T21:39:00.000-08:00

HAHA

2010-03-08T07:47:00.000-08:00

Not angry, just spilling out my thoughts(:

2010-03-05T03:54:00.000-08:00

Isit really funny if I were to say one day that I wanna start wearing a scarf over my head?
So it's just because of my outlook? The whole attitute doesn't count at all?
Why isit that I can actually get serious when anybody needs me to listen to them, and nobody does when I need somebody to listen to my thoughts and "I've been thinking..." stories?

Just because I didn't say anything when people question my religion, doesn't mean I don't give a hoot about it.
Well honestly, I always have the answers in my head.
But because I believe that strongly in my religion, that I don't question about it as much as some of you do.
And frankly speaking, all I do is let you insult and talk trash about my religion infront of my face so that I can see what your beliefs actually teach you-definitely not to respect others' beliefs
I'm just standing there staring at they way you behave immaturely but don't say a word, and that's exactly the answer you're gonna get about my religion's teachings-be patient, respect other's beliefs & not to get angry.

So if you ever think you wanna shit around with me about religion, you better get to know how strong I believe in it & how much I know first alright.

2010-03-04T00:59:00.001-08:00

Well, thanks to the Earthquake, our days are shorter now.
By millisecond.
Rapture is definitly coming soon, but i keep telling myself not to think about it.
An outbreak of itchiness on my whole body burst out yesterday.
And it's bloody irritating.
I'm thinking it's due to the increasingly hot weather, animal behaviours are changing as well,
and i'm talking about bedbugs.
I've still yet to clean my room, jog and tutor my siblings.
But I'm pretty sure I'm doing something meaningful these few days.
Chores.
Regularly.
I'm also starting to miss my family all the time, even when I'm spendin most of my time at home.
Like when I'm outside, I will always think of them.
And whenever I see my Mom, I have this urge to hug her, but I don't do it all the time.
Well, I just love them so much.
Now, moving on to my girls.
Again missing them so much.
Haven't like REALLY hung out for a loooonngg timmee.
Pending plan is on the 11/12f March.
Definitly going to be fun with the bitches.
So tomorrow, hanging out with the amigos.
Gonna have breakfast and then movie marathon at Arab's place!!
But I gotta go to school first to send some crap=_=
It's gonna be fun i can't wait!!

Loads of plans next week:
9 March-SIFE Workshop
13 March- Circus of Mutants Launch@Rebel Boutique Club[Anyone wanna come?Text me]
14 March-Dad's Friend's Wedding, Dress Code[Black&Grey] So wearing my new dress!:D

Looks like it's going to rain, but i bet it's just teasing us.
Laadidaa Dum Dum. In the mood for B&J's ice-cream now
hee

Holiday Treats!!

2010-03-04T00:55:00.000-08:00

Look at the size of that MILKSHAKE!!

credits to Nisa A.

2010-03-03T20:03:00.000-08:00

My sis said she hates you.
And she's not the one who had a bad relationship with you,
now why can't I be like her?

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AIZAH RAIHANAH & TENGKU NORHAIDAH~
WISHING YOU ALL THE BEST!
P.S:PRESENTS ARE ON ITS WAY YEAH?;)

2010-03-02T09:23:00.000-08:00

Oren~
stop stepping cute cans!

designing circus of mutants skateboard

Hi dad

I SO WANT THIS!!!!

2010-03-02T06:02:00.000-08:00

Lovely history~

2010-02-14T05:47:00.001-08:00

i miss my lovelies so much~

my O level Artwork half done, heh~

Prom Night picture HAHAHAH!!

i sure miss those moments ya know=\

Projects

2010-02-13T07:26:00.000-08:00

Here are my project grades:
Criminal Law-A
Legal System Methods-B*
Tort Law-A
Microeconomics-B
.
So i'm left with my World Issues project grade.
.
You know what would be nice right now?
A cosy picnic, lying under the sky with a warm hug.....OR
party at Pearlyn's house this Monday wooooooooo!
hee~
.
Hung out with Julius and Syifak yesterday. Damn fun, and the whole bug in my shirt incident. That was scary AND hilarious!
Can't believe all of us will be seperated next year :(

Logan Lerman

2010-02-13T03:04:00.000-08:00

dance like you never did

2010-02-11T05:11:00.000-08:00

2010-02-08T07:41:00.000-08:00

i can't get over the fact why you would hurt me to such an extent

i still couldn't believe how you could have made such a decision

which neither of us ever thought you actually would.

typical solutions people usually take to get the easy way out,

i never thought you would be one of those

typical is the last thing i had in my mind about ya.

ouh dreamy eyes

BOLD

2010-02-07T05:52:00.000-08:00

2010-02-04T08:11:00.000-08:00

i don't know where to start~

ok, let's see. . . .

umm, well i'm not lettin hope crush me again.

but, there's just this trust i have in you that makes me believe in hope.

at first it's just totally depressing, but then i realise how funny this is turning out to be.

& like we agreed on, sweet.

but weird in a way, that's what i think.

and i think, this time i have to follow what i have been going against all this time: to let time tell.

because honestly i dunno where this is going to take me or you or we.
things just feel so peaceful and calm whenever you're "around".

well, despite the differences & conflicts, i guess i don't really care much about all those.

stubbornly, i only follow my thoughts & feelings.

i dunno where i'm going with this.

i just hope things will turn out well soon.

2010-02-02T05:47:00.000-08:00

i'm still having a hard time making it through each and everyday on my own.

it's been like 4 months now....

& i'm hoping with the help of god, i will make it through asap.

& hopefully i will have enough strength and will power to be independent starting March.

I know i can go through this, i just need time and something to occupy my mind.

i don't believe in relationships anymore.

cos basically i'm just too busy with school and friends.

secondly, i'm not gonna fall for anymore traps.

my heart's not gonna mend itself any sooner so

partying soooooooooon!!!!!!!~

Hopefully my next upcoming performance will be in May for the Ain Society charity concert(:

2010-01-28T09:54:00.000-08:00

looks familiar?
jealous

2010-01-23T09:08:00.000-08:00

So what's it gonna be girls?

i don't know who to trust or even what to do anymore.

i suggest we stop pinpointing who's the bitch and talk things out nicely aite.

If you rather ignore, then I won't intrude.

2010-01-22T09:09:00.000-08:00

my sleeping habit has got to stop!!

i'm trying to have my naps after school, wake up at 4 in the morning to do my work.

but unfortunately i don't know WHY THE HELL i can't hear my alarm go off!

and the next thing i know, its 6.30.. half an hour more to preparing for school.

shit my mom's strategy is not working..

i guess its back to the old way,

coffee coffee coffee

finish up my work all the way till 12, then off to bed.

i don't know what else i can do.

sweetness of love

WOW she's hot!

2010-01-17T07:24:00.000-08:00

i can't believe this

2010-01-16T07:55:00.000-08:00

hello everyone.

i'm back with more depressing comments about myself.

enjoy this one.

well i had a sleepover at arab's crib yesterday. That's not the depressing part yet. All we did was had dinner, used laptop, watched some shows then we slept. It was such a wrong timing to sleepover cos both of us were so exhausted along with jew. We could have had way more fun than that but this month has been one hectic shit for us all.

Then arab and i went to SMU for SIFE workshop. It had to pick on a freakin saturday at freaking 8.30 a.m. I could have slept till 9 and chilled with her all the way till 1 uh!

But unexpectedly, it was really interesting and fruitful getting to know all these people from all the universities and polytechnics across Singapore. & the environmental stability talk was inspiring. Went to collect my green ipod nano which i won!=D then watched kishore played soccer.(this guy who's arab's seeing)

Depression mood starting again.

Always feeling and thinking that I don't deserve all this heartaches, bullshits. I'm still not over it and i don't know if I ever will. & why isit that i still haven't learn my lesson and change my perception towards boys. It's destroying the crap out of my brain and heart cells and believe me, school has been doing a good job in that. I can try whatever ways to act as if nothing happened, but that takes alot of effort. A lot. & i'm tired of doing all the clean up jobs thanks to you guys. It's not that you don't have a choice. I didn't have a choice to accept being in the relationship to begin with but it's because of love that I forced the choice to be available. I'm not trying to criticise anyone indirectly[or directly if you think it is] i'm criticising myself for not standing my own ground, and know what's the right thing to do.

misses, and still loves so much.

Lisah & LAW

Needed a saviour

Contented?

Mon Cheri

Finally

Hanky Hem Mac

Belted Button Mac

Adam Levine

2nd month

Ups&downs

please

shit

updates

Teenage dream

omar julius a hamid

240810

Tips&Tricks

Break fast

My girlfriend

What's happening?

Love

Jealousy

yes

Once again, not a mirror

what's it to you

Wish upon a star part2

WE

Cant I just?

Cloud 9

Paris Nights and New York Mornings

drugged

Another Rainy Day

Wish upon a star..

hehehe

Goodafternoon Beautiful(:

Goodafternoon Gorgeous(:

Goodafternoon Sunshine(:

My Noah

J.CO

Heaven

time

For you

16th May

I love you Mom

HOE

Leopard spotted Nails

McLovin

What's for dinner?

Turning 12.

Dan Sebenarnya

Deeper Conversation

I'm angry

Fuck yeah Friday

2nd Year

Birthday Trip!

What are you looking@?

Irony has a new name.

Sexy

5 weeks

Beneath it all.

What a BITCH

Mouth-watering

It's been awhile...

Saturday out in the city

Gear up for some tips on how you want to portray yourself in the business world

My Saturday!!

divine

Time for wordy updates

HAHA

Not angry, just spilling out my thoughts(:

Holiday Treats!!

I SO WANT THIS!!!!

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Lovely history~

Projects

Logan Lerman

dance like you never did

BOLD

WOW she's hot!

i can't believe this