hello everyone.

i'm back with more depressing comments about myself.

enjoy this one.

well i had a sleepover at arab's crib yesterday. That's not the depressing part yet. All we did was had dinner, used laptop, watched some shows then we slept. It was such a wrong timing to sleepover cos both of us were so exhausted along with jew. We could have had way more fun than that but this month has been one hectic shit for us all.

Then arab and i went to SMU for SIFE workshop. It had to pick on a freakin saturday at freaking 8.30 a.m. I could have slept till 9 and chilled with her all the way till 1 uh!

But unexpectedly, it was really interesting and fruitful getting to know all these people from all the universities and polytechnics across Singapore. & the environmental stability talk was inspiring. Went to collect my green ipod nano which i won!=D then watched kishore played soccer.(this guy who's arab's seeing)

Depression mood starting again.

Always feeling and thinking that I don't deserve all this heartaches, bullshits. I'm still not over it and i don't know if I ever will. & why isit that i still haven't learn my lesson and change my perception towards boys. It's destroying the crap out of my brain and heart cells and believe me, school has been doing a good job in that. I can try whatever ways to act as if nothing happened, but that takes alot of effort. A lot. & i'm tired of doing all the clean up jobs thanks to you guys. It's not that you don't have a choice. I didn't have a choice to accept being in the relationship to begin with but it's because of love that I forced the choice to be available. I'm not trying to criticise anyone indirectly[or directly if you think it is] i'm criticising myself for not standing my own ground, and know what's the right thing to do.

misses, and still loves so much.