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people
Saturday, October 31, 2009, 3:34 AM
i just suddenly have this random thoughts while i was at work this morning.
it's a pretty sad and depressing story that when one used to be so close with someone, say a girlfriend pours out everything to her boyfriend every single day. && suddenly after all the obstacles they've been through, one tiny weird glitch and he ends it. the next day, both of them pretend like they have no clue about the existence of each other at all. . or say best friends, just because one steals a boyfriend of the other friend, everything went wrong and all those moments they had since a small kid were erased immediately. because of a stupid boy. . these situations usually make us open our eyes and distinguish the real people who would stay by your side no matter what. . well yeah we should be thanful god made us open our eyes. but it is so hurtful and heartbraking that the people you love and depend on SOOO much, is just a stranger the next day. . i don't know why people have to turn out this way. don't we ever think about those good times? and that if there were good times, then ofcourse they can retrieve it back by working things out. it's all about thinking about the other party that makes you want to not lose each other. comprimising, love. why must it be so torturous for us girls. |
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OMG!!!!!
Thursday, October 29, 2009, 8:21 AM
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it's the end of the world for CHINA
, 8:01 AM
               
the reason why i am a rebel |
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I've got to run
Sunday, October 25, 2009, 3:05 AM
 Let's go simming!XDi didn't get to buy my laptop today cos my aunt hasn't trnasfer the money yet=\ well,there goes the expo fair. . what have i been doing for this weekend? work,birthday party at a chalet(which was darn awesome!HAPPY BIRTHDAY YUL&SHAHIRAN),and the house is out of food:( . in the mood for a swim,have breakfast,crash my beb's place and just chill there the whole day. doing our own things,like studying,gossiping,play games,camwhore. wouldn't it be oh-so-FUN? ^-^ i have a place in mind:AYU'S!or AIDAH oso can=D Hopefully we are this close throughout this whole semester♥ Toodles~
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ROCK IT
Saturday, October 24, 2009, 9:29 AM
 havin a hell of a time with my friends.shake that thang
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booorreedd
Tuesday, October 20, 2009, 11:44 PM
 i so can't wait for yul's bday party chalet. school is becoming so boring and it's only the second day! yet i don't want the increasing of workload to flood in. eventhough i've had two months of holiday,i still feel very sick and tired. sick&tired of the problems i have to go through every single day for 60days! stupid unnecessary problems that just made me so dead right now. i want to go Sentosa. i badly wanna go there, have fun, chill, laugh my lungs off and don't think about anything at all. i want to hug someone, i want to feel the warmth and security of a person's presence. when i get very close to that person, i will just smile to myself and wished that time would stop. and let me have him or her until i'm really satisfied. i miss being 15.
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first impressions
, 5:56 AM
I slept at 3am the day before the first day of school cos i was too excited. hehe . and guess what?i was late-..- thankgod it was only after 5mins. and the best part was the lecturer complimented on my shoes when i gave a grand entrance hahahaha nice. . then there was TortLaw tutorial, and i guess i made a pretty good impression to Ms foo, until i slapped hansel. haiya i sooo regretted it, i didnt mean to! it was just a sudden reflex tingy going on. cos i was irritated with him i didn't know what to do. and apparently it was a loud one. gosh, i hope Ms foo doesnt think i'm one violet bitch. Violent when provoked made by Barney last semester and its really true o_0'' . met my dear Hani after that=D had a loooong chat and it was really a nice one eventhough we had to raise a few issues. i miss her. . ~ we know it is over between us status wise.but i know that we know we are not over within our hearts. we have seen each other grow literally-height,features,maturity,attitude,brains, and most importantly strength and believe. I have totally changed you into a whole new person since the day we got to know one another.& although you are not the person i fell in love with before,i do not regret a single thing.because you have realised the importance of life and how education plays a huge role in it.I am doing this because I do not want to see you suffer and regretful like my parents and like what we are going through now. yes,we. which is the reason why you left me.because you have wasted 19years of your life fooling around.& you are 19years behind time.that is why you need to catchup all the things you have missed.& for that to happen,I have to get out of the picture.to let you have catch it all back.at least that's what you think is the best way. but you know what, i respect your decision. i just want you to know,that i don't wana erase you from my mind. i want us to be friends.close friends.so that we get updated about each other like we used to. we don't have to worry or be sad about each other anymore.we can just be there and see each other happy,enjoy each other's company. because i still want to continue,to see you grow. you really mean alot to me and you have already made a big stamp to my life. i don't see why we should just be strangers after all the things we've been through. if you are reading this,well it's up to you if you still wanna be with me.as a friend. i hope you are reading this. because i have forgiven you a long,long time ago. zul~
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my idol
Sunday, October 18, 2009, 10:31 PM
 simply hot, talented, strong, attitudetry not to look at em in a skimpy way noe wat i mean?
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if baby
, 10:00 PM
If I Don't Pick Up The Phone Like I Use To (For You) Don't You take It Personal If I Don't Do I All The Things That I Use To (To You) I Ain't Mad At You If You Get To Feeling Stressed Up In Your Chest Thinking That You About To Lose (Baby It's True) And If you losing Out On Sleep Home Worrying About Me This How It Be If You Don't know Now you Know You Going To Miss My Love And I Ain't Stressing Bout A Dawg On Thang Cause I was True When I Gave You My Love If You Search You Will Never Find Another Love Like My Love You going To Miss Me I Ain't Got Time While You Sit Around And Play With my Love (My Love) If You Think I Caught A Feeling When I Heard About That Other Chick I Already knew About It I Just Needed Time Just To Clear My Mind And Ask Myself (Why I Didn't Handle It) And If You Would've Taken care Of Home,'Stead Of Leaving Me Alone Cause I Would Be Right There With You Takin Care Of You Steady loving You Like I Used To Do There Was A Time I Blamed Myself But I Can See So clearly Now Cause You Are Gone That's How I Spend All My Time When You Weren't Home Playing Around With Them Raggedy Hafers No More stressing, No more crying, No More Trying I Would Rather be Alone I'd Rather Be All By Myself Because This Valuable Heart Of Mine Was Yours Until I Realize Finally Opened My Eyes I Know, I Knew Better What Was I Thinking. He Going To Miss Me When I'm Gone ♥ |
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Friday, October 16, 2009, 8:26 AM
eu shud watch this and read its lyrics eu. heck, y do i even care. sigh |
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Party at my place!
, 6:46 AM
4 people came over my place today: sengie,sabby,aidah and ayu came latest ^-^ . so the girls brought cards, dvds and ayu bought marshmallows and ice-cream.. i'd have to say it wasn't a loud and crazy party, but more of a chit chat relax just spend the day appreciating each other's company kinda thing. . & i like it =) it made me feel more calmed and peaceful inside.. so like we watched 17again & half of Just My Luck. and the rest of the time we just talked about guys and how much we get irritated with them. haha . but whatever. guys are so long gone.. anyways, can't wait for the new semester of school.. i just need something to occupy my mind and make me forget my problems. yup. . how do i feel right now? i'm still in a state of shock. i can't believe this just happened to me. i'm still trying to accept reality. am i sad? i'm not sure. depress?frustrated? uhhh,not sure too.. but i can say i feel empty, clueless, lost, and i'm missing those happy moments SOOO much =( but i definitly know that i didn't do anything wrong AT ALL & i don't deserve this kind of shitty treatments. NO those happy times are so far away now. i just have to see how long i can take all of this in. thanx for the day girls. but i'm still just ?_? . yeah. sighs ♥
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love
Wednesday, October 14, 2009, 5:01 AM
When somebody loved me, everything was beautiful, Every hour we spent together lives within my heart. . And when he was sad, I was there to dry his tears, And when he was happy so was I, When he loved me. . Through the summer and the fall, we had each other, that was all, Just he and I together, like it was meant to be. . And when he was lonely, I was there to comfort him, And I knew that he loved me. . So the years went by, I stayed the same, But he began to drift away, I was left alone. . Still I waited for the day when he'd say I will always love you. . Lonely and forgotten, never thought he'd look my way, Wished he smiled at me and held me just like he used to do, . Like he loved me, when he loved me. . When somebody loved me, everything was beautiful, Every hour we spent together lives within my heart, . When he loved me. When She Loved Me (Acoustic) - Sarah McLachlan |
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bffs
Tuesday, October 13, 2009, 7:48 AM
   yeah, sounds sooo primary school days.. but i love it, cos it says it all best friends forever insya'allah =) . sadly iffa and ayu have left. |
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my beatin heart
, 2:04 AM
i didn't expect to be toyed,played,fooled,lied,hurt,used by you all i know, is that you are crazy to have let me go. you're gonna regret it ♥yuyul
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CASTAWAYS
Sunday, October 11, 2009, 2:05 AM
Please rate and comment at this youtube page guys http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=o2LeygvX7_I THANX♥ =D |
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i'm taking up dance classes!
, 2:04 AM
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ladies night
Friday, October 9, 2009, 1:57 AM
           love my ladies manymany!♥ |
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Tuesday, October 6, 2009, 7:44 AM
Remember those times baby? when we used to go to school every single day together, you sacrificed taking the bus just so you could take the mrt with me.. ouhyea, and those times when we would secretly hold each other's hands and smiled to ourselves cos we were too shy to show how happy we were towards each other. . heh, those were the days yeah baby? =) . and let me tell you a secret. i would usually stand up in class an act as if I was stretching just to get a glance of you in your classroom at the opposite side of the balcony. I always laughed at the thought of that. how childish, immature and naive I was. but I know those were the major reasons why you fell in love with me. . but no matter how childish or immature or naive I used to be, I was already serious about chu at the age of 14+ can you believe it? . how i always lied to my parents just to get a glimpse of you, a taste of your touch, when i was only 14+. . and the many dates we had when you kept saying how beautiful i was when i felt i was the most messiest girl in the bunch. you wanted me so badly, i wanted you so badly. . and then my dad found out about us, you got so afraid things will end between us. . and when my parents finally accepted you, i remembered the long sweeet msg you gave me of how happy you were^-^ but every single day when we used to see each other, had to be shortened as you were ina different school and we were only allowed to see each other once a month. we had fights just because we missed each other soooo badly. . to me, that just shows how much we needed each other's presence. . and slowly, unnecessary issues started raising into our lives. ofcourse things went differently, definitly. but that didn't stop us from loving each other so much doesn't it? ♥ . now, i don't know what happened dear. i didn't know what i did to you, but whatever it was, you know i would never hurt you. you knew that. it's almost like, we're strangers to one another. after more than 2years, you are already a part of me. and there is no way anybody can change how much i love for you. nothing. . what did i do, to make you say such things to me? no baby, if it is not my fault, if it has nothing to do with me, then why don't you wanna see me like how you used to miss me so badly if you couldn't see me even for a day? if it has nothing to do with me, then why do you say that, your love for me is not as strong as before? . it is as much of a shock to me, like a bullet in my heart, like a stab in the back, like a choke in my throat. . i know i say i love you almost every single day. but believe me hunny, i really mean it when i say it eveyr single day. like the first day we sat at the park. when we wished that time would stop for us, to treasure that very moment. . no, you don't know, . how much you are hurting me right now, . when i've been holding on to you, . for more than a month, . when you already wanted to . let me go... . but i kept saying don't worry, things are going to turn out fine... . and today, . you don't love me as much as you did before... no my dear catcat, i don't want anyone else who can attend to my needs, . i want you . )'X
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holidays are over
Friday, October 2, 2009, 7:14 AM
 i'm supposed to end up like this by now. my holidays literally sucked okae and i think it's pretty obvious. i kept getting stupid scolding and stupid arguements over god knows what and honestly there wasn't even one damn day my mind was at ease. hell it's gona be over in 2 weeks and in these two weeks if i dun get any fun at all i'm so gona explode ouhk. i can't take it anymore. i really can't. pls, if i didn't disturb you, don't make my life more difficult
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hari raye la seyh
Thursday, October 1, 2009, 6:56 AM
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